患得。

我还是老样子。我没有损失。即使没有所得。

这些日子得到的有没有比我付出的多,我不统计。如果要把“得到的”定义成你们眼中的成绩,就算是我在逃避吧… 我不统计。

这一个骨节眼上我依然自得其乐。却发现自己的文字与思绪有依着大家的反应而波动,说我不在乎是假的。我~在~乎~。但是我不想因为自己的在乎把小事看成大事。所以我不回头不统计。不考虑不斟酌。我还是做我觉得我应该做的。在相信一切会变好的大前提下。

然而在写下“一切会变好”这几个字的时候,突然又闪过了应该如何定义“好”这回事。我的好不是你的好。你的好却是他的烂。到最后还是成了一个在乎不在乎别人眼光的老掉牙议题。

于是我又再提醒自己我的好在于比昨天的自己好。我的快乐在于比昨天的自己快乐。上来部落格随便写几个字大声的自言自语,提醒自己和自己该有的对话。

说完了。

9 thoughts on “患得。

  1. Hmm…
    I am a busy body because I take note to compare, I have been a loyal Aifm listener for 10 years just before the change from radio-5, so I heard a lot of things so far and able to compare how these people are doing.

    You came to 988 so have I almost at the same time a year ago, lives cross each other coincidentally and I am aware the course of such lives in a community to over lap at certain manner, beginning to think about purpose of living.

    You do remind me of myself and wonder how many people share such experience, perhaps the familiarity is because we live under the same condition and economic environment that created repeats. I past this stage and ahead of you and found myself, what I really want to do than what can I do, ironically you too are involved in graphic design, maybe that is the connection.

    When you have decided what you really want to do, then you are at my level.

    1. Phillip, well, we do have some similarity. I think I am there already. This is written as a note of reminder to myself, and perhaps to take a second look. We all need that sometimes. 🙂 Thanks Phillip.

  2. 好一句“我的好不是你的好。你的好却是他的烂”!
    人心中自定义的好坏程度有几千几百层,让自己和昨天谈话,自得其乐,也没什么不好=)
    加油^^

  3. 彪民哥,你好!
    部落格,
    总是能够让繁忙的城市人
    放下自己的脚步,
    聆听自己的声音

    我想。。。
    你累了吧?

    加油!!

  4. 彪民,有些时候当某某人、事或是物对自己起了负面的反应的时候,自己的思绪难免会有一些波动。当我们在乎得和失的当儿,其实我们也在探讨和摸索生活。潜意识里我们想揭开生活中”得与失”另一面的神秘面纱。

    也许我们的”在乎”是因为我们希望和要求生活素质有所滋长。所以我们要活得好、还要更好!

    然而”好”的定义因人而异。所以我唯有把”我~在~乎~”当成一个可供自己参考的目标。也许是一股推动的能量,让自己前进吧。”得与失”–并不需要向任何人交待,只需要对自己负责任。

    祝福你的每一天幸福和快乐。:)

  5. 嗨彪民,很喜欢听你的节目。每天晚上会习惯性的开988,听你说的小故事,每天终会有那么一点感触和领悟。“好”的定义我觉得因人而异吧…不过不管怎样,重要的,不是被人怎么看待你,而是你怎么看待你自己,尽量让自己感觉美好吧…^^

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