It was a very dramatic week for me. I had the worst and best experiences.
Early in the week, I had to fight back emotion to stay calm on air. I displayed too much emotion than a pro radio DJ should. There were a few instances whereby I couldn’t even come out with words on the first night when I talked about the kids in Penang. The second night was better controlled, but I really wish I don’t have to go through this kind of emotion in future, let this be the last we will every have to experience.
Two days later, the gig I was looking forward to turn out to be a disaster. I had some legendary pop stars on stage with me. I felt like an idiot. That is the closest I could describe. I didn’t perform well. I wanted to put the blame on others but I know I couldn’t, it was me who didn’t know how to handle the situation. I am glad the press played it down, though they can’t help themselves describing the event to be full of embarassing moments, I think they are very kind not to attack this host. Thank you reporters, you are so kind. However, this marks the lowest point of my emcee career.
I have to admit I got cold feet after, wanted to pull out from any the other stage gig. Feeling tired, I pulled out from Friday night cny promotional gig for the station, also because I knew they didn’t need me anyway. However, there is another stage gig on Saturday afternoon; but there is another voice in me telling me the best way to gain back confidence is to get into the same task and perform better. After my failure in seeking for replacement, I knew I had to do it.
I bought myself a new coat, which cost more than the pay I get for my Saturday gig. Well, I meant to buy one to attend my good friend’s wedding lunch on Sunday anyway. That afternoon, I went on stage totally being myself. I am glad I had that chance. It was encouraging. The guest from Taiwan, the organiser and the location manager gave their compliments after. Thank you guys. I need them badly. And that was a good bounce back.
The same evening, I went on stage again, infront of a concert crowd with my fella 988 Djs, to dance and sing. The tune and dance step have been playing in my mind ever since we first practice on Thursday. I am not good at memeorising anything, being lyrics or dance steps. I knew I had to work harder than anyone. And it was fun. I remembered everything, said, sang and danced everything according to plan, though I wouldn’t say I did them well, but it was a fun experience.
And the next day, Sunday, I hosted a wedding lunch with my friend William, for another good friend of ours KitKat. It was probably the best wedding event I have ever emceed. We had fun on stage, it was grand and touching at moments. The hall was fabulous, perfect deco, amazing lighting, wonderful sound system, lovely food and surprisingly well controlled stage effects which includes waterfall-fireworks… everyone had a great time! It is a wedding KitKat has been dreaming for and I am glad we managed to deliver.
I think the coat I bought in TopMen is now my lucky coat. 🙂
I feel blessed. Very blessed.